To all of you who see your beautiful faces below, to those who referred me to one of your friends, & to my unconditionally loving & supportive husband…THANK YOU!
Today I reached THE goal.
In June of 2010, shortly after marrying Matt, I decided all too confidently that I was going to be a professional photographer. This idea came to me out of the blue…but looking back on it now, I know that it came from God. He had a Plan for me and all of You were a part of it. The timing in my life to take up a new hobby could not have been more perfect. I was slowly becoming depressed in early 2010 because I was no longer able to work out, play volleyball, and heaven forbid, wear heels. Daily outdoor activities has been my fuel since the day I could walk, so when my knee was not healing properly after surgery number 3, I began to panic. The pain consumed my every thought and the fear of a fourth surgery was ever present. On top of that, our wedding photographer dropped off the face of the Earth and did not edit our photos or make our album. I couldn’t see The Plan through all my tears at that point, but now I am so thankful that our photographer fell through on her contract because it was the very first stepping stone to where I am today. I found great joy in making our wedding album and editing our images. Family saw this joy and urged me to pursue photography.
Photography made sense. After all, I was a neurotic hoarder of anything and everything sentimental. I have a box from 8th grade onwards filled with everything from Blink 182 concert tickets to candy dropped by a guy I was crushing on…I am a little scared to go back and open those boxes in fear of not knowing what will pop out at me. It sounds crazy, but these items were saved so that someday I could use them to bring back a forgotten memory. I had a genuine fear of forgetting. When collecting odd items from events became inconvenient, I turned to photos to be that tool to bring back the memory. ’Shout out to the parental unit for all the albums in your attic!’
Becoming a photographer is all I could think about in June of 2010. I have very little patience when it comes to reaching a goal. I wanted photography experience, and I wanted it right then and there. I put an ad on Craigslist as a “Free Photographer” after having my camera a month. It was a shot in the dark, but 2 brides responded…then mom’s looking to have their kids photographed reached out, and before I knew it I had 2 weddings and some family shoots under my belt. It was so much fun! I spent countless hours at my computer reading every thing I could about my camera, shooting techniques, and tutorials. I was officially obsessed…and in the meantime, a miracle happened, my knee pain had completely gone away after a year of nonstop agony. I cancelled my surgery plans and booked more sessions. Before I knew it I was juggling 2 full time jobs leaving very little time for friends, family, and Matt. That needed to stop and it needed to stop ASAP. It became my mission to do photography full time from that point on so that I could do what I love and be the best wife I could be.
It is Matt who cheered for me everyday as he saw how happy photography was making me and wiped my tears away when I spent every other night frustrated at not knowing how to create a blog, operate Lightroom, or figure out how to make more space on my sloooooow running computer. There was never enough time! Time for him, time for me, time for friends and family…BUT I knew I had to keep pursuing my goal cuz I loved everything about shooting people (with my camera).
Soooooo, It is with great disbelief and joy that today, March 24th 2014, after 4 years of building this little business, is a day to CELEBRATE! It is my last day here at Gymboree after almost 8 years of designing for the Boy department and my first day as a Full Time, Full Blown, Wedding & Family Photographer!! I am sad to be leaving behind the Gymboree family, but am beyond excited to have time to put more love into growing as a photographer.
Thank You. You all got me to this point. 4 years, 75 couples and families, and the 787 facebook followers You brought my way! Your support, advice, motivation, and moments of love You have shared with me do not go unnoticed…Pop open some bubbly with me as I toast to You! We did it!